One after another, choices needing decisions just keep coming.
Home decisions hang in the balance. When can I get this fixed? Who will follow through with the repairs? What will it take to get everything done?
Work decisions weigh on my mind. What are the next steps to take? Am I the only person who can do this? Do I need to bring in more help? How will this timeline come together?
Relationship decisions tug on my heart. Is “yes” the best answer? When can I spend time with them? Should I really be that honest with my thoughts and feelings?
Decision fatigue.
Even as I write these words, my mind feels so very tired of the many decisions that need to be made.
Weary, my heart turns to the only One who has the answers to each and every single decision.
I open to a blank page in my journal to share my tired heart with the Lord.
A prayer seeps from my heart, through my pen and onto the page. Weariness oozes from the ink: Lord, renew my awareness of Your presence. I need a fresh infilling of You in me. I need Your wisdom, for You to do a gentle, peaceful work in me that flows from me. No rushing. No pressure. Just peaceful guidance from You, leading to purposeful obedience from me.
As I pray I realize that in the natural, this pathway of making these decisions alone will not lead to peace. He is peace.
I make the best choice I can choose — turning to His Word to me: “Be still, and know that I am God …” (Psalm 46:10a).
Do you see that comma? It seemed to jump off the page.
A pause.
Be still, …
When I’m still, then I will know. I will know the peace He embodies. He will show me His will. I will
know that He is God.
Not When I’m busy, When I’m productive or When I make all the right decisions, but When I’m still.
The word “still” in Hebrew (the original language of the Old Testament) means: to hang limp, sink down, be feeble, to be lazy, to leave alone, abandon, withdraw, to show oneself slack.
Am I reading this right? Could it be that God is endorsing this type of behavior?
Yes, I have read His word correctly.
Be still. Be patient. Be quiet. Be trustful and know. That is where He calls me to go: Pause and find Him. Peace.
Lord, being still, when there is so much to do, seems so wrong. Yet, Your ways are not my ways. Help me to breathe deep, be still and pause to take You in. I want to know that You are God. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
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